Wednesday, March 11, 2009

What????

So... I have a “whine” to blog about today. Recently, I saw where a couple I went to high school with is celebrating their 20th wedding anniversary. You have no clue as to how depressing that is for me. This is not the only couple. I know of several couples I graduated with that have been together since high school and are STILL married. Heck, my little brother and his wife have been married 12 years. They were also high school sweethearts. Personally all of this seriously bums me out and makes me want to puke!!! I did not even make it to my 7th wedding anniversary. Matt was only 5 months old when we separated. Four years later, and I’m a slightly overweight, underpaid, divorcee with a pre-packaged family. Not to mention the fact I will turn 40 in less than 4 months!!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

All this leaves me to wonder many things. What exactly is God’s plan for my life? The only portion I have figured out is being Mom to my wonderful kids. Or, is that the only plan? Does God have someone chosen for me? Or, am I going to remain single for the rest of my life? How come I have yet to find that person to be with for the rest of my life? Does that person truly exist? I thought I found him once, but we all know how that ended. If/when I do find that person, how will I know it is him? Questions, questions, questions…

For those of you that are married to “that person,” remember to be thankful. Remember to forgive, overlook the hard times, the arguments, disagreements, etc., and thank God for sending that person to you. You are truly blessed. There are those of us that truly wish we had what you have…