I NEED A HUSBAND!!!!

No, I'm not trying to be set up on a blind date. There are many, many rewards to being a Single Mom. Looking at your children, seeing their accomplishments and knowing you had a hand in it; showing up for the Thanksgiving lunch at school, unannounced & getting to see the look of sheer delight on their face; not having to share their attention (yes, I know - that's selfish), etc. However, there are very critical times in life, when I feel I NEED to share the joy with a man. That time: WHEN YOU ARE TRYING TO MOVE A FAMILY OF FOUR ON YOUR OWN!!!!!!

Yes, ladies... I need to borrow your husbands. It is absolutely IMPERATIVE we get moved out tomorrow, and I have not been able to locate any able-bodied help. Can some of you PLEASE spare your husbands for tomorrow evening??? I'm in DIRE need of some help!!!!! I have a truck, a dolly and a house full of boxes and furniture. The majority of the stuff will go into storage, except a few boxes and the kids' beds, which will go with us to Mom's.

Let me know if you know of ANYONE that can help.

Much love to you guys!!!! As always, thank you for your prayers!!! They are such a blessing on my life!

Glenna...

THANK YOU!!!!!

I want to thank all of you for your prayers & support. As many the ladies from my church know, I did get the kids back last nite. I had to agree NOT to give the kids their ADHD medication, until they are seen by yet ANOTHER psychiatrist. Apparently, the ex knows more than 2 psychiatrist, 1 psychologist and 3 licensed counselors. Anyway, as I said in an e-mail yesterday, if you see me with my clothes inside-out, make-up on just one eye, two different shoes and my hair standing on end, just love me. I will need it. LOL

As for the kids not being on medication, I have already received word from Miller's teacher that he is talking too much and unable to concentrate since he returned to school (he was out sick Monday & Tuesday and yesterday was his first day back "flying free"). Maggie is not doing well, at all. She was having meltdowns last nite and is extremely depressed. At one point last nite, she was hitting her forehead with the heal of her hand and saying "Stupid, Stupid, Stupid." Everytime I have to even slightly correct them, Maggie asks me if she is being bad. It's breaking my heart. Matt is unscathed. She's a go-with-the-flow kinda girl.

So, please continue to pray for us. Pray that we are able to get the mess with the medication resolved SOON!!!!

Prayer Meeting...

I am needing help from you ladies.

As some of you know, I am in a custody battle with my ex-husband, and he filed for Emergency custody of my children, and I have not seen them since dropping them off at school last Thursday morning.

Our hearing is scheduled for 8:30 a.m. tomorrow morning. I keep thinking of what the Bible says about "Wherever two or more, there I am in the midst of them." I feel God has laid it on my heart to gather some of my fellow Christians and have a literal prayer meeting tonight. If any of you are available tonight to meet at my mother's at 7:00 p.m. Mom's number is in the phone book. If you can make it and need the address, please contact her.

Love to all of you,

Glenna Friesz

Empty...

The house feels soooo empty this morning - no movement, no joy, only silence. That is pretty much how my heart feels, as well. No joy, only mourning and silence. Matt left her TV on yesterday morning, and I cannot bring myself to turn it off. Her breakfast plate is still on the counter where she left it, and I cannot bring myself to clean it up. Miller still uses his "security blankets." They are still here, and I can't seem to let them out of my site.

I need to be packing the house, but cannot bring myself to move any of their stuff. If I leave things as they left them, I can almost picture them just leaving it there. Plus, when they come home, I want everything right where they left it.

Everyone keeps telling me to try to think of this as their weekend with their Dad, but it's just not possible. I know they will not be home tomorrow afternoon. I know I will be going to sleep in the house, alone, for the next four nights. How do I function, when everything about my day, actually my life, revolves around them? I truly do not know what to do with myself. I don't know how to just take care of me. For 9 1/2 years, I have not taken care of just me.

I miss them so much. I feel so helpless. It's as if I could crawl out of my skin because I do not know what else to do. I want to scream!!!! My arms are so empty. I long to hold them and hear their sweet voices. I want them home!!!!

The hearing is Wednesday morning, at 8:30 a.m. That seems eons away from today... I want to make up for all of the lost hugs and kisses from the last few days. Once they are home, how do I ever let them out of my sight again?

My present family status...

I had my meeting with the CPS investigator, and it seemed to have gone well. From what I was told about the allegations against me, it was definitely the ex-mother-in-law. There were things she exaggerated, that only she could have come up with, because a lot of it goes back to when the ex and I separated. Due to some of what she said, the witch ended up implicating the ex, and he is now under investigation, as well. What a Mom...

Here comes the horrible, awful, rotten part... When the ex found out he was under investigation (before finding out his mother made the report), he flipped out and filed an Amended Petition for Custody and TRO. So, he now has custody of my kids. I spoke to him last night, and it seemed we were going to get this all straightened out. He said he would speak with the CPS investigator, and see what she had to say.

He spoke to her this morning, and she told him to go forward with the custody petition. I thanked him for making me look guilty of neglect. I have CPS investigating me, his MOTHER is the one that filed the report against me, and HE is suing me for custody. How in the HELL does he think that makes me look???

So, I will be spending the weekend alone, with the dog. The kids will not be coming back on Sunday evening. Our temporary hearing will be held on Wednesday morning, at 8:30 a.m. I am praying that this goes well, and they can return to me afterwards.

I presently feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest and run over by a steam roller. I'm nauseated, and I want to just crawl in a hole until Wednesday. However, I cannot. I have to work, and I also need to get the house packed up for the move, which is supposed to be next weekend. It's hard to concentrate, when all I can do is think about my Angels.

PLEASE, I'm begging, pray I get my children back.

Prayer request...

Let me first start by thanking you guys for the wonderful comments left for me... I knew I could count on my friends for support, love and understanding! You guys are awesome.

Next, I will be meeting with the CPS investigator, at my house, at 12:00 today. My best friend is going to be with me, and possibly my younger brother (a/k/a my attorney). Please pray that the investigator will see just how much I adore my kids and that I do take care of them and do NOT abuse or neglect them.

I love you all, and thank you for your love and encouragement. I will post again tonight and let you know how everything goes...

Much love...
Glenna

Why can't my life be easier?

What started off as a great weekend ended in disaster! It was my ex's weekend, and he took Miller & Matt and left Maggie with me. She had a Halloween slumber party Friday nite, and he let her stay. Saturday, Maggie and I had the best time. We went shopping, out to eat, to a movie and then more shopping. She was soooo sweet. She kept telling me that it was "the best day ever!" When you're a single Mom, any time you are able to spend with just one child is truly a time to be treasured.

Sunday morning, we got up and went to church. After church, we went to my Mom's. The three of us decided to go eat at Cracker Barrel. Well, Mom takes a tumble on the way into the restaurant - scared me 1/2 to death. After about 20 minutes or so, we were able to get her up and into the restaurant. While we were waiting on our food, the ex met us there with Miller and Matt. Fast forward... After the kids got out of AWANAs, we came home and started winding down. I typically try to have the kids in bed, lights out, TVs off by 8:30. We are getting ready to move, and I was going through a bunch of clothes and realized it was time for the Maggie & Miller to take their nighttime medicine. So, since I was in the middle of something, I sent Maggie to the kitchen to take hers. Miller was in the kitchen, so she left the bottle open for him to get his medicine. Well, the little fart decided he would take FOUR of them, instead of one. He proceeds to inform me of this, while I'm nuking their dinners in the microwave. Anyway, I call the ER, they have me call poison control. Poison control has me take hime to the ER.

We end up at the Medical Center ER. I was so scared. Then, there was the feeling of guilt. I should have stopped what I was doing and given them the medicine myself. Then the fear returns. I have NEVER IN MY LIFE felt so alone and scared!!!! Fortunately, the amount he took would only make him EXTREMELY sleepy. Unfortunately, my divorce papers state I must contact the ex in cases such as this. I do, and am chastised about allowing a 9 1/2 year-old to take her own medicine. Just about the time we get settled into the ER room, he arrives from Houston. I am grateful that he was rather pleasant. Fast forward... Miller slept until 10:30 yesterday morning. He woke up "wide-open!" He was his normal hyper self.

Wild Man returned to school today, and I forgot to send a note with him. Well, the teacher asked why he was out, and he told her. When the kids get out of school, Maggie informs my mother that Child Protective Services showed up at school and interviewe her. I later found out they also interviewed Miller. I got home this evening to find a card from a CPS investigator. I am under investigation by CPS for child abuse or neglect. I cannot believe this is happening!!! I absolutely ADORE my children. I may not be the traditional mother, but I love them sooooo much! To have someone accuse me of intentionally harming one of my children is one of the most humiliating, hurtful things I have ever been through. So, now I will be going through an investigation, homes visits, having friends interviewed, etc.

I'm not sure if I will ever know who reported me - the school, the hospital or my ex-mother-in-law, but I have absolutely NOTHING to hide!!!!! I have not abused my kids, and I have never neglected them!

Right now, I am feeling so alone, scared, worried, etc. I do not understand why, when things were starting to look better for us, they had to take yet another detour! Why is it that I am not allowed to just fall into that "rut" that many people complain about? I would sooooo love to find that!

Please pray for me and the kids. This is going to be a long and very stressful process. I had just found hope, and now this...